When you face your mortality every day, the mind turns to challenging and painful thoughts. I saw a momentary glimpse of unfathomably deep sadness on my dearest husband's face. This is the dark fear it brought creeping to the surface mind.
Will you sit and look at photographs of me
Still life memories of our life together?
Will your shoulders shake with repressed grief,
Will tears burst through and have their way?
How will it be for you when I am gone,
Stripped of my presence, my touch, my love?
Who will comfort you when the shadow overwhelms,
Who will find those errant keys ,chameleon glasses?
Who will laugh at your absent minded ways,
And love you for each one, never in spite?
I do not fear my passing from this world
I fear the depth of pain I leave behind
Yet I must walk my path, accepting of my fate,
Leaving you all that I am, even beyond the grave.
Once upon a time I was a fat little caterpillar whose contented munching was disturbed by visions of bright wings flying free in a world beyond the cabbage patch. When my caterpillar form could no longer contain that dream I entered the Chrysalis where thought became form. This is my journey.Walk with me.This is simply who I am.
6 comments:
Maria I cannot find the words through my tears, beautifully written. X
Maria, this is deeply touching, both in facing the inevitable ending of your own life, and in attempting to comfort your beloved husband once you are gone.
There simply isn't any way to prepare for the worst, but the legacy of your kindness will live on.
Your loving friend,
Diane T. and furfamily
Oh my dear friend, Maria. This made my heart feel like the swell of an ocean wave for a moment. I don't know which of us will make our departure first. I do know that I fervently hope to be in your presence on the 'other side' once we have both arrived. x
This is beautiful, Maria. I'm afraid there simply are no words to describe the depth of feeling your words evoke.
There is SO much you have gifted and awakened in me, my dear friend Maria!
I am honored to know such a master of depth.
Namaste, my friend, as we adventure together.
Adela
Dear Maria
the post is poignant with the depth of your Love for each other. You are both blessed to share such a beautiful bond. Thank you for giving us a glimpse of the scope of your Loving, Its beautiful beyond words.
Love Shirley
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